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Name: Caitlin
Birthday: 4/19/1990
Gender: Female


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Sunday, May 21, 2006

♥ New Site ♥

this just isnt me anymore...

www.xanga.com/x3My_Heart_Belongs_In_Calix3


♥ communion party ♥

went to my cousins communion party today..saw my little zaylie aw so cute..and their little cocker spaniel puppy maddy..they all told me how good i look tan..my grandmas like "ya, she looked like a GHOST before" lol soooooooorry...yay justins coming in like a month :)  happy!!!  i guess i get to go to Hodag (like country USA but wilder) this summer..dont worry justin, ill be good, i love you  :)...not that you read this right now anyway cuz of your computer lol...i guess i did pretty good food wise at the party, small piece of cake, and 2 smallish coconut bar things...then im having my quesadilla rolls tonight...yay schools almost over..thank god!

man i wish i looked this good in the stuff i bought:

damn you Alessandra Ambrosio...damn you


Saturday, May 20, 2006

woo bra shopping... i ♥ victoria's secret

 mi favorita

 lol boring i know but i needed a white bra

 red oo sexy lmao

 there is a difference between this one and the red one..this is HOT PINK

 oo black

damn my 34 A boobs...i need implants!!!  now i just need to lose weight so my fat doesnt hang over the back of the bra blech


Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Currently Listening
Where'd You Go
By Fort Minor
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well i dunno if im doing bad or good..ive been eating HORRIBLY lately but on the other hand i went for about 45 minute walks the last three nights so i dunno..all i know is im getting ridiculously fat so i need to get things under control for gods sake..i made cookies last night but then my grandma wanted me to make cookies with her tonight too and i couldnt say no to my gramgram lol...god i suck...

b: yogurt

l: handful of chips and roastbeef and cheese sub

s: cookies

d: cookies and 2 tortillas with cheese

exercise: 45 minute walk

 ack god im fat


Friday, May 12, 2006

ugh, i need to get back to my old self...

1. Because I like sitting on people's laps.

2. Because I hate having to pick out an outfit based on what covers my fat.

 3. Because i need to be a 00

4. Because I like when my thighs don't touch.

5. Because I like feeling my elbow bones and my collar bones

6. Because I don't want to have to lie on the floor to see my hip bones for the rest of my life

7. Because 110 isn't good enough

8. Because 100 isn't good enough

9. Because 99 isn't good enough

10. Because if I can't be thin, I can't be pretty

11. Because thin is everything.

12. Because a dream about binging scares the hell out of me.

13. Because I don't want to be known as anything other than "the thin one"

14. Because I love the feeling of emptiness and purity

15. Because saying no to things makes me feel strong

16. Because I want to surprise people with how thin I got.

17. Because I'm the only one that can crush my dreams.

18. Because I can see a difference between a full stomach and an empty one

19. Because my happiness depends on it.

20. Because I like hearing how skinny I am getting.

21. Because gaining weight is not on my To Do list.

22. Because losing is 23. Because thin and pretty are requirements for happiness.

24. Because you can always be thinner

25. Because no one can stop me

26. Because I only want to pay for one seat on a plane.

27. Because I don't want my size to keep me from doing the things I love.

28. Because I want to slip between two objects not squeeze past them.

29. Because I don't want to be ashamed of myself when I write in my xanga.

30. Because lingerie doesn't look sexy on fat girls.

31. Because fat girls don't get loved, they get settled upon.

32. Because I need love

33. Because not buying something because it's too big feels really really good.

34. Because it's the only thing I can control.

35. Because I like hunger pains.

36. Because you don't get a second chance to make a thin-pression.

37. Because thin girls look good in everything.

38. Because I wont be free until I'm thin.

39. Because the thin girls really aren't jealous of how smart I am.

40. Because I like struggling to stand on a windy day

41. Because I'd rather buy a smaller size top than groceries for a week.

42. Because a cold isn't the only thing that should make you starve.

43. Because I love being cold even in the sun.

44. Because I want to be thinspo for someone else.

45. Because I want the dimples on either side of my ankles.

46. Because I want people to see my strength

47. Because I don't want to be limited by what is too small.

48. Because I don't want to pinch an inch

49. Because I live for that extra fifty sit-ups

50. Because I don't like having a fat day



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